Schedules Schmedules.

I've always been able to keep up little routines: routines with my blog, routines in the shower, and nighttime routines. But keeping a schedule is entirely different. And entirely something I've never been able to do. 

I meet with my therapist once a month for work on my anxiety and panic attacks, and the past couple of sessions have been spent learning how to handle my chronic illnesses without too much anxiety or feeling distressed (WHICH I AM NOT GOOD AT), and one thing my therapist - Melissa - thinks would be good for me is to set up a schedule. And I've been trying. 

The first thing I did is pick which day of the week (because I've found I can only do it once a week) I should set aside to work on my crafts for my upcoming Etsy shop. I decided on Monday. And I'll tell you why. We keep my niece every Friday afternoon and Sunday (pretty much the whole day), so I thought it would be best to work on my crafts while I still have some energy from being with Maddison. So I have my Sundays settled up. 

But then I have so much to do during the rest of the week, that I can't get everything done in a day. Sunday's are obviously out to do ANYTHING because seven-year-olds are serious distractions, and for the three hours we have her every Friday, I always try to plan something for us to do (we have a fun project planned for day after tomorrow). And then, of course, I always just wanna lay around doing nothing after she goes back home. 

But there's sooo much to do every day, and only four and a half days to do practically none of it??? I mean, there's writing, setting up a queue every night on my blog, making book quote edits for said blog, writing posts for this blog, taking my cats out for an hour or two, and making sure I get enough calories in a day (also something Melissa and I are working on ): ). And that's just the stuff I have to do everyday. That's not accounting for the other stuff I have to fit in a week, like, doctors appointments, errands, chores, and writing articles for online magazines. I have no idea how to fit it all in!

Even if I make sure to do the book quote posts in the morning (with a bit of writing in between), the queue at night, a post for this blog every afternoon, and at least two magazine articles a week, everything else falls through the cracks. I have no idea how to get everything else done! And anyways, all I ever do is sleep anyway. 

I realize this is mostly just word vomit (a term taken from my friend (hey Lily!)), but I thought I would just get this stress off my chest. Maybe I'll be able to come up with an actual schedule to post tomorrow. 

Thanks for reading!