Week One of Routines.

Since I'm probably going to be without my iPod for the next week, I went ahead and made up a routine that'll carry me through to Saturday. And it's all about working on my fiction. (Tomorrow I'm just going to spend the day reading. So I didn't worry about making a routine for it.) Tuesday: Regarding Katrina outlines. I also need to write Annabelle's report for school, and make up Jay's journal (not necessarily all on Tuesday). Wednesday: Momentary Magic outlines. Thursday: Quite Contrary outlines. By day. By hour. Colorless: Outlines. And I need to figure out all of the different colors. Don't worry. That makes sense to me. In Between Fairytales: Outline. Figure out the fairytales. Small Bumps: Outline. Write a whole bunch of character letters. I may also grant you all the special treat of posting snippets of each of these books during these days. And maybe with my books' help, I can get through this week waiting for the new battery for my iPod. I made an extra little note on my routine list, that I may as well put here: Read through/proof Mave & Marti, try for anytime I'm on the computer. Re-edit Yen's Revenge like I did AWD. Re-edit the AWD trilogy like that too. BUT I want to work on the TMI fanfiction first - or do it all one book at a time. I think that'll be pretty cool. And it'll be a challenge to help me really get to know my characters.

Here is a List of All the Things I Have to do Now That I've Finished My Book:

I realize I said days ago that I was going to make a post stating what all I need to get started on now that I've finished my last book, but my iPod has been out of commission for the last few days, and I feel so lost without it. I mean, I'm going to get it fixed and everything, but I'm going to spend the time until it does curled up in the fetal position on the floor.
But, I'm going to go ahead and make this post now:

One of my bigger projects, honestly, is working on my three blogs. (Okay, so if you count all of my side Tumblogs, I have WAY more than three. But all I do with those sides is click reblog. So, there is that).
I have my main Tumblog: Faithliesin-me.us
Currently, I am working on retagging all of my writing on there. That's taking a lot longer than you might think. I'm on my third or fourth day of it already, and I'm only, maybe, a third of the way done. But I'm going to feel soooo good when it is done!
And when it is done, I must finish working on my writing links. TBH, those go on here, but they're linked straight to my Tumblr theme.
I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO WRITE AN ABOUT PAGE FOR NEARLY FOUR MONTHS.
And I forgot to link my new blog to my Tumblog!

Most of my work for my Tumblog is actually on my iPod SOBSOBSOB.
And that is my book quote edits.
And I cannot lose those.
And I am praying hard that I haven't lost them.
Pray with me, please!

This is the second blog I am now working on.
I need to finish my links. I thought I was finished the other day, but, nahh, I remembered a couple more links I need to add. So, I'll try to do that within the next couple of days.
I still need to come up with some writing routines for myself that I'm going to post on here.

And I made up a list of different types of post I want to make regularly on here:
Writing updates.
And I don't know why I can't post some of my own writing scenes.
I'm going to continue my black & white picture stories.
I've got the posts about hot drinks to accompany writing.
And I've got the posts about music to accompany writing.
And when I get my iPod back, I can finally start posting my writing tips that I've been working so hard on. Only, I clearly think I'm Jar Jar Binks, because this is what I actually wrote in my notes:

My last blog is my new blog, Aargh. I made the list of regular posts, but I'm not going to post those on here.

And then I have my fiction writing.

I'm working on four fanfictions (it took me a (lot more than a) minute to remember the fourth one without my iPod, but I finally managed).

I don't normally write fanfiction. Usually, when I do, it's an alternate or extra ending.

And that just so happens to be what three of my current fanfictions are.

One of them, I just cannot tell you because it's a Christmas present for someone who might read this!

The other two are:

ABC Family's Twisted,

and Descendants!

My final fanfiction project is more along the lines of rewriting my favorite book series using my original characters, instead. I think it could be fun.

We'll just have to see if I can get any of these projects done.

It took me a while to count up all of my original fiction projects, because I'm so used to having all of them right there in the palm of my hand on my iPod. But I gathered up all of my journals, and my courage, and I counted them all up. And, yeah. There are twenty.

I never did put my last completed novel through it's final edit, so first, there's that.

I need to re-edit Yen's Revenge in the same manner that I did A Winged Dreamer.

I need to trim seven novels into a trilogy.

And then I need to write:

Regarding Katrina,

Momentary Magic,

Quite Contrary,

Colorless,

In Between Fairytales,

Small Bumps,

Countess,

Lex,

Introvert,

S'up,

Flaw,

Belenus,

and two books that don't yet have names. (And if you want to know what any of these books are about, please feel free to ask me, I'd love to let you know!)

My final fiction project is taking an experience that was really great in my life, and making it into a fictional story. That's going to end up going onto my new blog.

And then, of course, there's all of the therapy work from the past three years that I still need to organize. But I really don't care too much about that.

Now I just need to come up with some really good routines.

OH, I Remembered What Else I Have To Do Today!

I have to work on my Disney Descendants fanfiction. 

Things I Need to Get Done on This Day.

So, yesterday, I made a post about needing to come up with a new routine, blah, blah, blah. I haven't yet. But I figured I'd go ahead and make a list of what I need to get done today, so that maybe it'll be easier to get it done. 

Welp. First, there's this post. 

Then I need to make my second chapter of my burn book. That's right! I'm making a totally 90's inspired burn book. Harriet the Spy much?

I need to work on my second Blogspot. 

Which reminds me! I need to finish putting up the final few links on this blog. 

I have to email a couple of people. 

I wanted to write a couple of my prayers in my Jesus notebook. But we'll have to see if I have the time. 

And I reallyreallyreally need to make a list of all the writing projects I'm working on. 

That's it! Maybe...

Tonight or tomorrow I'll post that list of all my writing projects. 

But for now, I really need to get to work. 

le Schedule le Routine

Looking through, and trying to organize, my posts on this blog, I found my silly posts about a schedule early on in my career on here. ( http://faithliesinme.blogspot.com/2015/03/schedules-schmedules.html ) (  http://faithliesinme.blogspot.com/2015/03/schmedules-schedules.html ) I think it must've been just after my therapist insisted I try schedules to keep me through my days. But I don't do so well with schedules. Never have. Even when I was in elementary school I schmeared my class schedules and did the work I wanted to.
But, what I do do ("hahaha, you said dodo!") well with is routine. And I need to come up with a new one now that I've just finished yet another novel project.
So, I think, sometime soon, that's what my next post will be. For some reason I felt inclined to let y'all know!

Coping for Faithliesinme

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I am 23, and I have been sick for 23 years. I even spent the first two weeks of my life in the NICU, and my mom couldn’t hold me for three full days.
So, what am I sick with? Well, let’s see, there’s the Acid Reflux and Irritable Bowel Syndrome that I was diagnosed with when I was little (as well as chronic UTIs). The chronic migraines came later on in my childhood. Then, when I was fourteen, and it was time to stop homeschooling and start high schooling, the stress of the change caused my worst illness to flare up. But we didn’t know what it was. We spent three months in and out of the hospital. I was probably X-Rayed three hundred times. Sent back and forth between different doctors. Missed three weeks of school. Wanted. To. Die. Then I was sent into the office of a Rheumnatologist, and my favorite doctor ever. We were in there for only five minutes before he diagnosed me: Basically I don’t have enough cartilage, and it causes serious inflammation and pain. It’s called Hyper-Mobility Syndrome, and the whole thing ended up being a little Faultish: “I didn’t tell him that the diagnosis came three months after I got my first period. Like: Congratulations! You’re a woman. Now die.” Except I’m not dying. I’ll only be sick forever. And which is worst, really?

Resources for spoonies:

Chronic pain/fatigue self-help.

Sleep hygiene.   

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I wish I could tell you that the physical is all I have to deal with. But it isn’t.
After going through too much in my new adult life, I placed myself in the care of psychology. I have been seeing a therapist for the past three years, and during that time I have been diagnosed with depression, anxiety, mood disorders, OCD, and Borderline-Personality Disorder. And I’ve been receiving so much help for it.

DBT.

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*please beware of triggers from this point on

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Once upon a time this was a full-on recovery blog. A traditional story of girl meets girl, I like to think I saved another girl’s life. We used that story to create this blog together. We wanted to save other girls’ lives. And I like to think that we did for a while. A month into it, our story took a little break when she asked me to take a break. Another month later, she decided to hand the pen completely over to me, and I tried to keep the story going.
But you should never set yourself on fire to keep others warm, and that’s what I was doing. I decided to put the flames out and change the story. That’s why I’m a young author’s blog now. Because I am a young author.

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Four years ago, I started harming myself. Things were bad, and I didn’t think there was anything I could do about that. But there were so many things I could do about that. And I figured a few of them out. And now I’m a year cut clean as of August 19, 2015.

My reasons not to self harmBefore you self-harmButterflies and braceletsMake a coping corner

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When Demi Lovato opened up about her eating disorder and recovery, she told us that she remembered looking in the mirror at the age of three and thinking she was fat. When I was five-years-old, I remember telling my parents a little white lie because I was embarrassed. They knew I was lying and I heard them talking about it. And I thought I was a bad girl. And I thought that there were things I thought I didn’t deserve. And food was one of those things. Ever since then, I’ve always been made to feel like I don’t deserve my daily needs, like my body has to be punished or something. But I’m slowly starting to learn. And I’m slowly starting to recover.

A list of eating disorder resources

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You would think with everything else I deal with that I would also deal with suicidal thoughts, and you would be right. And I’d like to say that I’ve never acted out on these thoughts, but I would be lying. I would be dead right now if God hadn’t stalled my car on that September 19th four years ago. And with the way my life is now, I’m so so glad He did.

Feeling suicidal?

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These things are nothing more than a way of copings. No matter what you feel, the devil is not holding you down. This is a battle you can fight. And your weapon does not have to be a blade. You can fight it with support. You can fight it with art. With sense. You can even have a dance party by yourself.

Visual skills:

Color matching gameCute overloadCute rouletteFireplaceLaugh with the procrastinatorLivestream of the oceanMake everything okayMake SandArt onlinethe Mountain- 3:09Open a windowPaint a nebulaPlay with cobwebsSeed plant breederSmash glassUn-disgruntle yourselfWeave silk

Sound skills:

All the music you’ve ever rebloggedAmbient sounds (multiple)
Calming sounds (multiple)
Coffee shopCoffee shop bluesConcentration 8tracksHappiness 8tracksMake cool musicMake your own A Cappella groupPlay pianoQuiet placeSounds to fall asleep toSounds to help you focusThoughts roomWhite noise generatorYoutube to MP3 (MP4)

Creative skills:

Learn ElvishMake a flower crownMake a font from your handwritingMake gifsMake a wandOrigami
Upcycle old tee shirts/no-sew

Silly skills:

2500 Japanese emoticons Look like a HackerPlay cute games Pokemon secret baseStickman adventures

Sleeping as a skill:

How long to napSleep Calculator

Flattery as a skill:Automatic flattererBe comfortedComfort someoneEmergency complimentGivesmehope

Help somebody else as a skill:

Answer trivia questions and give people riceClick daily to give free food to an animal shelter

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Animals are such a big part of coping. Many treatment centers use animal therapy, and many therapist recommend volunteering at an animal shelter as a skill. And if you don't believe how much animals can help, I dare you to get a pet and not feel a wee bit happier.

Daily puppyPlay with shelter kittens

Live animal feeds:

CalvesChicksEnglish Bulldog PuppiesKittensPandasParakeetsPenguinsPuppiesSea OtterSloths

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I never want you to believe that other people can't help you cope too. I wouldn't be where I am without the support and coping of the other humans in my life. And I love them all so much.

International Suicide HotlinesIMAlive-online crisis chat
Lifeline Crisis Chat

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I saved my favorite way of coping for the last. Fatal to the Flesh is a blank screen that you can cut when you feel like there's nothing left to do but cut or starve or even kill yourself. And it bleeds! I don't know about you, but seeing blood, even computerized, makes me feel like I'm finally doing something. And it's such a relief.

Fatal to the flesh (PLEASE be aware of triggers on this one)

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And if all else fails, just know that I love you.
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Just Another Update on My Writing~

Cambio Col[lab] was my dream writing gig. I had wanted it since 2011. I never thought they would submit my first post. 

Writing for them for the first few weeks was a dream too. Thousands of people were reading and actually liking my things. I had the chance to talk to some really cool people. And I even got to ask a couple of celebs a question. All through Cambio. 

A couple of months into the gig, a new manager was hired. I thought she was going to be really cool. But she turned out to be extremely passive aggressive. She wouldn't tell you things that were going on until she was confronted with it, and then she would always say, "My BOSSES said..."

I could deal with a passive aggressive boss, I have before, even though I'm not getting paid for this. But then she blatantly called me a liar for an article I wrote, after stringing it along like she was going to publish it. I sent her a long and honest email about it, and she kind of just shoved it aside. 

That was when I first decided I'd quit. I had decided I was going to wait a little while, and keep writing some, so I could leave with them with a bit of a notice about my departure. 

Until the last straw. When she gave me an assignment that basically called my illness a trend. The sickest part about this is that I'd come out about the illness to her because she'd been sending me assignments that upset me because of it, and I'd asked her if she could stop.

After this final move, I've decided to quit. So I am no longer writing for Cambio. I will be updating on here more often than I have been, and I'll soon start some writing advice blogs. I really look forward to posting them. 

However, if you want to read any of my Col[lab] articles, you may click on the following link. 

http://www.cambio.com/collab/bloggers/aimeeann/